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  • I only take Photomanipulation suggestions, and some Mixed Media suggestions. I cannot feature anything else (like scraps).

  • Make sure that the deviant hasn't already received a Daily Deviation within the past 6 months. FAQ #313: How can I find out if someone already has a Daily Deviation?

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  • Please let me know if you want to remain anonymous as a suggester; if you do not specify I will assume that you want your name listed on the DD.

How to suggest


Just hit the "Note" button on my profile page and add the subject: DD Suggestion include the thumb code (or URL) along with the reason why you think the deviant deserves a Daily Deviation.

I may not reply to all suggestions but I do read, consider and appreciate every suggestion :heart:.

Anxiety: Wait! There's More!

Mon Oct 20, 2014, 12:12 AM by AbbeyMarie:iconabbeymarie:


When it comes to severe anxiety, the chances of you only having anxiety is pretty slim. There are quite a few secondary conditions that come along with having anxiety that are just as (not) fun as anxiety itself! Some of these secondary conditions tend to go on while you're not actually experiencing your anxiety, and are more of a side effect from the anxiety itself. You can have these things independently from anxiety of course, but for now we are going to talk about them as a secondary condition. The side dishes to the main meal.

The Big Three

  • Depression 
  • OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
  • Paranoia 
These are the three most common secondary conditions you are likely to encounter while dealing with anxiety. The goal for this journal is to share experiences, knowledge, troubles, and success when it comes to dealing with the after effects of anxiety  

My Experiences 

Depression

Depression is often caused by living a less than fulfilling life, being restricted by your anxiety can cause you to hide away. Not having the job you want, the life you want, the friends you want. It can become tiring, and feel hopeless when everything you do is focused around avoiding anxiety. It makes me feel weak not being able to deal with my anxiety, I feel ashamed and embarrassed of it. I consider everyday a new failure, and depression is a constant in my life because of it. I won't be able to kick it until I have managed my anxiety.  

Paranoia

When it comes to social anxiety, paranoia is it's best friend. The feeling of constantly being watched, judged and whispered about. It's the starting point of many a panic attack in my experiences. It's kept me from leaving my house for weeks at a time, and has caused me to pass on countless positive opportunities. This ones a bitch to shake, but ultimately boils down to three things for me: a) confidence, b) "fuck it" and c) fake confidence. I found something to be confident about: my art. I then developed a very strong "fuck it" attitude, I simply can't be bothered to be paranoid anymore. And finally I just started pretending like I was the coolest shit ever. Which is easy to do after all, I mean I must have a pretty huge ego if I go around assuming the world is watching/talking about me. 

OCD

I've also had very slight stints of OCD. Obsessively counting,  scratching and picking at my skin and hair, other odd small things I felt compelled to do; though I never had to deal with it on a large scale. I am not sure where it came from, or why it went away. It was just there, and then kinda just...left.

My Advice 

I have a few pieces of advice to share. They are short, sweet and to the point:
Fake it till you make it. Fake like you know what you are doing, and eventually you will actually know. Keep in mind, I don't mean fake being happy, or lie about any issues. That's a big no no! 

Laugh at yourself. Accept yourself. Don't take yourself seriously. Acknowledge your neurotic nature  for what it is: silliness. Laugh at it, then love it. You are your own worst enemy, learn to love thy enemy.

Admit it. When I do something off, or odd, or start to freak out in front of people I just straight up say "I have intense anxiety. My brain is basically melting right now". People do one of three things 1) Laugh (with me) 2) Give sympathy/compassion 3) Don't care. At all. People are busy with their own lives, there own issues. They aren't going to talk about you or judge you, they aren't even going to remember you.

QUESTIONS

  • Have you had to deal with any of these, or other secondary conditions?
  • If so, do they come from your anxiety or are they the cause of your anxiety?
  • What do/did you do to cope? 
  • Do you have any advice to give?


Coding by SimplySilent

Commission Information

Sun Oct 19, 2014, 3:43 PM by AbbeyMarie:iconabbeymarie:

Mixed Media Commissions: Open!


I am currently looking for freelance work! You can contact me via Email at abbey.esparzaa@gmail.com or through any of my social media sites. Feel free to contact me for any reason or if you have any questions!

All commissioned work is high-res and printable as long as the images provided allow for it.



Prices

Commercial: Starts at 100USD
Noncommercial: Starts at 60USD
Tutorials: Starts at 100USD

All prices are negotiable. The price depends on your individual needs, what you ask for, and the time frame you need it in.

Payment

Paypal








Services



Full Artwork
Book Cover Artwork
Cd Album and Booklet Art

Posters
Personal Edits
Tutorials



Mixed Media


Mind On Fire by AbbeyMarie Surface Light by AbbeyMarie Gilded Web by AbbeyMarie Piano by AbbeyMarie Panda Girl by AbbeyMarie


Bookcover Art


Book Cover Samples by AbbeyMarie Book Cover Sample by AbbeyMarie Book Cover by AbbeyMarie Book Cover by AbbeyMarie Book Cover by AbbeyMarie


Retouch


Retouch by AbbeyMarie Retouch by AbbeyMarie Retouch by AbbeyMarie


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Coding by SimplySilent

Abbey Marie Esparza • Digital Artist • Student



I'm a 23 year old Mixed Media artist based in the United States. My compositions are all based in photographs that undergo an intense treatment to transform them into the surreal, unusual and macabre. Feel free to contact me for any reason! I'm only half as creepy as I seem.

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Commission InformationMixed Media Commissions: Open!
I am currently looking for freelance work! You can contact me via Email at abbey.esparzaa@gmail.com or through any of my social media sites. Feel free to contact me for any reason or if you have any questions!
All commissioned work is high-res and printable as long as the images provided allow for it.
Prices
Commercial: Starts at 100USD
Noncommercial: Starts at 60USD
Tutorials: Starts at 100USD
All prices are negotiable. The price depends on your individual needs, what you ask for, and the time frame you need it in.
Payment
Paypal
Services
Full Artwork
Book Cover Artwork
Cd Album and Booklet Art

Posters
Personal Edits
Tutorials

Mixed Media
    

COMMISSIONS: Available!
COLLABORATION: unable

For commission information/pricing you can contact me on here or if you would prefer to talk through e-mail I am abbey.esparzaa@gmail.com! All prices are negotiated individually and are dependent on your needs.

PAYMENT: Paypal only




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Monster Vs. Robot. Who wins? 

60%
3 deviants said Monster!
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2 deviants said Robot!
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No deviants said Me! :ninja:

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LadFree Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student General Artist
thanks for DD :)
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Andaelentari Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
Oh congratulations! :clap:
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slight-art-obsession Featured By Owner 4 days ago   Digital Artist
I didn't see you had become a CV - congrats! :clap:
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phoenixleo Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014
Belated congratulations and welcome to the team! :clap:
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xXPinkish-RainbowXx Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014  Student Digital Artist
 congrats
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Minato-Kushina Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2014
:iconcongratssignplz: Many warm congratulations my dear! :clap: :hug:

Enjoy a lot your new position! :party: :iconsomeconfettiplz:
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thefantasim Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2014   Digital Artist
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Just a little "hello, Congratulations on being our CV!"

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I'm excited to see what you'll do to make this the best program at dA. If you need me to help you with anything, I'm here to help!
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KovoWolf Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Professional General Artist
Welcome to the team! <3
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Creamydigital Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Congratulation for the new status :dance:
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Lhianne Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014
Congratulation and I hope you will have a great time :hug:
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diphylla Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Welcome to the mad house :giggle:
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JaiMcFerran Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Congratulations on your promotion! i know you'll do great! :) Party 
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ReyeD33 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congrats! :salute:
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puddlefisher Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Ahoy! Congrats on embarkin' and welcome aboard! Ahooooy Matey! 
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Krissi001 Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2014
Congrats :happybounce:
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